Letting go of the "me file." and letting God
The Bible is the perfect place to turn when you are going through rough times. “Cast your cares on the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous be shaken” (Psalm 55:22). These are true promises, with the seeds of inner peace hidden in them. But it’s easy to misread these passages to mean that God is a magic problem-solver, a genie whose main job is to make us happy today. It’s easy to assume that casting our troubles on God means He will take our troubles away. Sometimes, though, He doesn’t. But in every case, what “Let go and let God” comes down to is this: We need to let go of our own will. We must claim as our own the incredibly hard prayer that Jesus prayed: “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but Yours be done” (Luke 22:42). We need to let go and let God do what God wills. This submission will lead to peace and joy, even when the way is difficult. “Father, I place my life in Your hands!” (Luke 23:46).
Isaiah 65:17” see, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered nor will they come to mind”.
This is God promising his people in the Old Testament that he shall forget all what they have done in the past and create a new thing in them and for them. That they shall not nor shall God remember the things in the past. God wants us to forget all the things in our past that brings pain, frustrations, bitterness, pain behind us. Let create a picture of what God intends of us with the technology that we have today – the computer you are using. Think about your computer screen right now, where you are reading these words. Imagine that in the back of the program you are reading this in, in the empty space of your screen, is God – formless, wordless, pure positive energy, unlimited freedom, love peace, joy, creativity, oneness and harmony, and the opportunity to realize / remember that all of this is YOU, as well.
Then you open up a file in a text program which now fills your screen. In the file is the story of your life. As it opens on your screen you see your name at the top. The words on the page describe everything that ever seemed to happen to you. An account of all your relationships and what happened in them. All the people who appeared to betray, abandon, hurt, or love you. Your children and all your relatives. All the places you've lived or visited. Your friends, acquaintances and pets. All the jobs you've ever worked and the skills you have. All your dreams and aspirations. Where you went to school, your degrees, your accomplishments. Your income and how you feel about it. Your self-concept. What you like about yourself and what you don't like. What others seem to like and don't like about you. Discussions about who is right, who is wrong and why. Everything you associate as part of your life in the past, present and future.
This file fills the entire screen. You have your computer set up so that as soon as you turn it on every morning the file of your life opens and you read it and work with it all day, editing and adding to it. Each day you review and add to it, affirming, “this is me.”
So how are we ever going to experience the pure, innocent love that is Who we really are, One with God, peace, and joy in the screen behind the file if we're continually reviewing the story of “me” that covers the whole screen? The answer, of course, is that we can't. Not until we let go and let God come into our awareness by letting go of the "me file." As long as we choose to keep the “me file” on the screen and reaffirm that it is who we are, we can't see the empty, pure Loving Space behind it. Meanwhile, we ask, “Where is God? Why did God desert me?” All the while God is behind the “me file” saying, “I'm here! I love you! Wake up and see that you are my beautiful, adored Child!”
It isn't until we DECIDE to be willing to drag the “me file” to the side enough so that we can at least glimpse the empty screen of Love behind it that we begin to have our own direct experience of God. When we're willing to let go and let God, and decline to refer to the “me file” as who we are, if even for a moment, we begin to experience the Awake Light of who we REALLY are. As we view the screen (the Oneness of God, the Awake Christ, the pure, formless, innocent Child of God we are) we begin to FEEL and directly experience the Truth of ourselves. We all tend to repeat what feels good. As we begin to experience a different perspective when we let go and let God – a broader, freer one rather than the tight, limited “me” one – the more we want to return to the experience of expansion, freedom, wellbeing and Light that is who we really are.
Therefore, we DECIDE to “drag” the “me file” aside more and more. Eventually we decide to drag it all the way to the “trash” (in the metaphor of a computer screen) when we see it is the source of all our suffering. This is what Awakening is. We still show up in the dream for as long as the body lasts, but we know our experience of the figure in the dream isn't who we really are. As we continue to let go and let God, we know ourselves as formless Spirit, which is now in the foreground, not stuck behind a “me file.” The story of “me” fades way into the background as if it has never even been there at all.
Comforting thought for the week
We have to release what is cluttering up the mind before we can see the peace that is obscured by it. Do not flinch from suffering; bear it silently, patiently, resignedly; and be sure that it is God’s way of infusing iron into your spiritual life. The world wants iron dukes, iron battalions, iron sinews, and thews of steel. God wants iron saints; and since there is no way of imparting iron to the moral nature but by letting people suffer, He lets them suffer.